Letting go and letting God

‘’if you loved a flower so much  you wouldn’t pick it up, you would just let it be and let it grow. True love is about appreciation and not about possession’.

Today, I have made a decision. The decision to let  go and to let  God, the decision of trusting God for what belongs to me (opportunities, relationships and friendships) and the decision to let  go of what doesn’t belong to me regardless of how painful it may be. Today I chose to abandon all my selfish desires and to let go of the possessiveness I have felt in

side of me, to let go of forced interactions and to let go of the desperate feeling of being around someone or speaking to somebody before I can classify myself as ‘happy’ or as ‘stable’. Are you going to let go with me?

Lately my emotions have been everywhere, but all challenges are a blessings, or at least that is what I believe. I have trained myself to believe that after a storm there is always a rainbow and maybe some sunshine too. I don’t want to believe that all worries and fears last forever, I am guessing there is always a lesson and test behind every obstacle.

Have you ever given your love and your all to someone and felt like no matter how much you have given and how many memories were created it’s just not enough?

 Well maybe it isn’t. It isn’t enough because you deserve so much more and it’s time to let go of the heaviness in your chest. It is time to stop wondering what if and it’s time to stop feeling like it’s your fault or haven’t done enough. It is time to free your soul, body and feelings and move on but most importantly it is time to accept that some people are in your life for a reason and season, certainly not for a lifetime.

Stop being tired. Stop being frustrated. Stop shutting your heart from love because of the pain.

But also stop giving your heart, soul and body to everyone. Stop believing that everyone in your life will understand you and is there to stay and stop believing that everybody should be let in your soul.

                                        Lessons are needed for our growth.

Stop beating yourself up. Stop fighting for people to be in your life, people who were never meant to be in your life in the first place. People who are not moving an inch to please you or people that make you feel like you don’t matter.

There is nothing wrong with you.

Just because the love isn’t reciprocated, it doesn’t mean that there is anything wrong with you.

Everything is wrong with them.

Because they didn’t see your worth. They didn’t see how much you valued and cared for them. They didn’t see the extent of deep your love was for them.

What a great loss.

Some have issues. Some people are afraid. Afraid of love and afraid of giving, afraid of being naked. They don’t know how to act and how to receive and give back.

Frightened.

 Frightened is the way they feel when they are faced with enormous, unconditional and undeserved love.

They never had that.

So, my love, stop constantly being subtracted from. Stop empting your jar, you need filling.

You equally are in need to be loved and to receive. You deserve to receive what you give and more.

                                        You deserve the world.

Let go of the stones weighting down your chest and causing you sleepless nights.

It is not your fault, nor there a fault at all in having a beautiful soul.